Utan Dig


UTAN DIG, by Hillevi Söder


Printed book: 978-91-88105-28-8

E-book: 978-91-88105-29-5

A mother’s story about her child’s suicide and the time that followed, about sadness, health problems and messages from the other side, but also about moving on to life and fulfilling dreams.

From the book:

On Monday it was time to visit the funeral office. Just after we had settled in the room, the lights went out for a short while, just like when we were talking to the therapist. Maybe it was a sign …

The visit there was the worst step so far. Imagine choosing a coffin for your child! It felt completely surreal. I was terrible and had difficulty crying. We sat there for three hours to decide what the ad would look like, what newspapers it would be published in, what coffin we should have, cremation or earth burial, when we chose cremation we would also choose the ones, which flowers should be on the coffin, where he would get his last resting place, where, when and how the funeral should go to, etc. The last thing we did not succeed with, as the actual churches only take about 140 visitors and we thought there would be many more. The funeral agency promised to check options and we would do that too, so we would be talking again later this week.